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New Years Recovery Playlist

New Year’s is a time filled with diets, resolutions and the promotion of weight loss and exercise by the media. For those with eating disorders – this time of year can be very hard so I’ve created a list of uplifting songs to get through the triggers.

  1. Recover – Natasha Beddingfield
  2. Firework – Katy Perry
  3. Brave – Sara Bareilles
  4. Carry On – Fun
  5. Roar – Katy Perry
  6. Stronger – Kelly Clarkson
  7. Fight Song – Rachel Platin
  8. Scars to Your Beautiful – Allesia Cara
  9. I Love My Life – Robbie Williams
  10. You’re Worth It – Cimorelli
  11. Skyscraper – Demi Lovato
  12. The Climb – Miley Cyrus
  13. Recovering – Celine Dion
  14. Try – Colbie Callait
  15. Fighter – Gym Class Heroes
  16. I Lived – OneRepublic
  17. Masterpiece – Jessie J
  18. Gold – Britt Nicole
  19. The Lost Get Found – Britt Nicole
  20. Fix You – Coldplay
  21. Human – Christina Perri
  22. Hold On – Extreme Music
  23. The Greatest – Sia
  24. Anchor – Novo Amor
  25. Perfect – Emma Blackery
  26. Jump Rope – Blue October
  27. Recovery – James Arthur
  28. Save The World Tonight (Acoustic version) – Collin McLoughlin

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I can’t be fixed…

“I don’t care. Everywhere I go, I seem to break things. And the more I try to fix them, the more I make it worse.”

“Because you cant fix other people until you’ve fixed yourself.”

“But I can’t be fixed because i’m crazy.”

“You’re not crazy. Now I want you to tell me what you don’t like about yourself but be honest with me.”

“I’m fat. I’m ugly. And I ruin things.”

“I want you to imagine the ten year old version of yourself sitting right there on this couch. Now this is the little girl who first believed that she was fat and ugly and an embarrassment. I want you to imagine her sitting there right now. What do you want to say to that little girl? If she said to you thats how she felt about herself, what would you tell her?”

“That she’s fine. That she’s perfect.”

“That’s what you need to tell yourself. You need to tell yourself that everything is going to be okay.”

I came across this reading just now and it absolutely broke me to tears. I’m not feeling great and there are so many things swirling around my mind. These words are just perfect. I’m sorry for not trying.


Somehow the bruises changed my plan. And there’s a silent storm inside me, looking for a home. I hope that someone is going to find me and say that I belong. I’ll wait forever and a lifetime, to find  I’m not alone. There’s a silent storm inside me, and someday i’ll be calm.

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