So today we may have reached a good point in terms of ‘recovery’. I had a meeting with my DA to discuss referral processes for a new diagnosis. I did a referral test which gave a result of 10 out of 10 and have now been processed onto a referral to wait for assessment.
I’m not going into this ‘diagnosis’ until I have 100% confirmation that it is the diagnosis we have been searching for.
Either way, new and positive things may be coming up in the future that will help explain my entire life, my behaviours, my problems, my anxiety, and so forth.
It’s been a rough 24 hours and I have took about 10 steps back in terms of being ‘stable’. My depression has thrived in my defeated mind this last week and my anxiety has not been in my control. Either way, 12 hours later after 10 panic attacks, I’m feeling ready to fight again.
I think people underestimate the struggle of trying to remain ‘okay’ when you battle with so many internal illnesses.
Every single hour of every single day is a big deal for somebody struggling.
This morning was a success – leaving the house, getting a bus and attending two appointments before getting the hour journey bus back.
Little steps are everything.
Please keep trying to make those little steps and push and push and push until you get the help you feel you need.
Love you all, hope you’re doing well! ❤