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Ignite Cardiff #28

Last night I spoke at Ignite Cardiff, an event held in Cardiff Bay that allows speakers 5 minutes to share something on stage that is educational or inspiring.

I was lucky enough to be shortlisted for the event and went up on stage in front over 450 people to talk about Anorexia. With a diagnosis of Social Anxiety Disorder, going on the stage in front of all those people and talking about something so personal was terrifying. I was scared, felt vulnerable and anxiety was in every corner. I was watching the speakers one by one knowing my time was soon to come. My throat was incredibly sore, my chest was tight, I was thirsty, cold then hot and started to shake. When I went on stage I was shaking so bad I had to hold onto my que cards to make sure I didn’t drop them. I was sweating. Exhausted. But I got into it and despite the anxiety I did the full 5 minutes and got off the stage. People clapped and I finally felt relieved. And extremely proud. I relaxed and all the tension I’d been holding turned into a raging migraine and I was so tied I felt I could sleep for days.

If someone had told me a few months ago that I would be speaking in front of over 450 people about Anorexia I would’ve looked at them in utter disbelief. This is such a big step for me. I’m the type of person who can’t get on a bus in fear of having to buy a ticket, the person who counts money at a till 20 times even when I know I have enough, the person who wont leave my room in days in order to people…

Ignite has changed my life. I am so incredible thankful…

See my speech here:

https://m.youtube.com/channel/UCU0oM2ZMtVveUgpkCBxOstwUCU0oM2ZMtVveUgpkCBxOstw

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